Why,..... Why love?

Honestly, I am looking for someone who will keep my heart secured and warmed with love everyday. It is not an exaggeration but my heart gets cold lately – it’s below the zero degree or to be exact, it is at thirteen degrees Celsius. I want to live life with the highest intensity of happiness. On the other hand, I want to but I am already sick of hoping for someone that never comes. I am already scared to be hurt again. I don’t want to be hurt again. Well, who wants to be HURT anyway? I don’t want to ruin the meaning of my life with the pains – with the hurting. Until I met this girl. No, I’m not talking about the girl in my previous post.


I wanted to write something but I can’t think of words that suit best to my emotions right now. Let me picture out this way: My day won’t be complete without seeing her face. And I can’t sleep. Or maybe, I am just dreaming that I can’t sleep. I do not know. I do not understand. All I am sure of is that, she is everything to me as of now.


She is pretty. She is kind. She seems to have invisible wings of an angel. Yes, an angel, that’s what I think of her – she’s the angel of my dreams. She has an angelic face and an angelic smile. Her eyes are sparkling hot. Her body is just right. She really has that features of an angel. Or maybe, she really is. She is an angel in human form…


Aside from her angelic features, I also sense some things from her which made her distinctive from other girls. Her smile has that power of seemingly melting my heart. It’s like my heart was burned every time I take I glimpse of her – but no, I don’t think my heart was really burned. Above all, there is that unfathomable feeling – a feeling which I cannot figure out what. She smells sweet but I guess her scent has nothing to do with it. Her hair is beautiful but I guess it has nothing to do with it too. Hmmmmmm… Maybe this is LOVE. Maybe this is the feeling they call LOVE.


People say that love is like a give and take game or a game of puzzles wherein one must play wisely. Others say love is thorny and bloody. Some say that loving someone is tough. Well, if this feeling that I am feeling right now is indeed LOVE, then love for me is indeed mysterious and undefined. It left me now asking: Who can ignore LOVE? Who invented this mysterious feeling they call LOVE? Why LOVE captivated me this way? Why LOVE?


(Inspired by listening to my song playlist and with the thoughts of that girl!)

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TO LOVE PAIN

When I was looking for someone unique
I found YOU because YOU’re true

When I found YOU
I fell in love with YOU because YOU’re like an angel

When I fell in love with YOU
I felt pain because you said we’re better being just friends
and nothing more

When I felt pain inside
I accepted life would be like this forever

“I want to live life with love and pain with YOU as my angel and my friend rather than living life without pain, without love, and without YOU!”

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